OPINION: I CONTESTED FOR WHAT?

36
OPINION: I CONTESTED FOR WHAT?
By Abid Salam
17 May 2020

I left my passion and profession
just to accept the fear of getting  killed.

I contested for what?

I Left my family the movements that I was enjoying and was used to.
I contested for what?

I left the early morning walks the fresh air and breeze.
I contested for what?

The get together of the evening with besties now the besties also fear to talk.
I contested for what?

I miss my bike Rides I left the joy.
I contested for what?

I am missing my Asignments I used to pack my camera bag and equipments and the taste of getting tierd that I miss the most.
I contested for what?

I miss the dates with my beloved  now it’s been a long time I hardly get a time to speak.
I contested for what?

I contested just see the people talking and looking to me like I am the creature from another world.
I contested for what?

Every single day my mom and other family members call  several times  just to confirm whether the man is alive or not
.I contested for what?

Puncture sounds of cars makes my friends and family afraid.
I contested for what?

I fear the thunder sounds during rainy night’s and days it seems like unknown gunmens are roaming in the sky also.
I contested for what?

My elder brother closes the gate at 6 pm although he knows I was used to come after 9pm in routine.
I contested for what?

I look at everybody who is talking on phone, looking at me, wearing PHREAN, even the market has became most scary  place for me.
I contested for what?

Just to hear from my friends “stay away from public places and now this has become the most terrible thing for me when everybody says ‘WENA TAAS DENAI,  stay away you might get killed.
I contested for what?

Yes I am Gaddar because I didn’t wanted anybody to win from my ward who is incapable of writing a single word,and didn’t wanted my community to suffer.
I contested for what?

I am sorry Ammi Brother and sister, every single sound and second kills you that how long I will survive.
I contested for what?

Yes I was indipendent in my world now I am feard of my own people and I have caged myself IN fear.
I contested for what?

Just to witness the false promises that Government of world’s  largest democratic country did.
I contested for what?

I recite Quranic verses while walking having a thought that this may be the last movement I am living.
I contested for what?

Dear unknown  Gunman Kindly kill me because every single second of the day is more dangerous then having a fear of getting killed.
I contested for what???

The Author Abid Salam was a journalist and contested Recent  ULB elections and now has been  elected as corporator of municipal council Baramulla. You can Reach him at  Abid.mcvp111@Gmail.com 9906529943